Sorry to hear about your relapse Trejo bud...
Also Just another silly reminder for everyone...I know it's been said to death.....but I believe in it that much I feel it's worth bringing up again.....just in case some dismiss the thought without giving it a fair chance/thought first!
GET A PUPPY(or a rescue dog even)
Perhaps any pet....
Now I realize not everyone is a dog person....but from what my dogs do for me(full in house/bed dogs) and from what I've seen them do for my aunt who has terminal cancer, for my mum thru her hardships(her cat), and others in different community things I've seen around over the years.......dogs, and other pets can be an AMAZING source of focus for trouble minds. They can love you back unconditionally and become better friends/companions then even parents can with children. I've seen, I believe it, I live it!
Anyway....I hope this thought comes across the right way.....in such a serious thread!