[BA-XT]

It really is horrible. Had another large episode today and left my Xanax tablets at home. Had to pull over get out and walk around for 45 minutes.'lucky I didn't get a ticket! I was in Docklands at the time.

People look at you strange. I shake and rub my hands together to help deal with the anxiety. I know I look like a complete nut case but it helps. Sometimes it's just not possible to get away from people. At the very least I HAVE to get outside into fresh air.

It feels like you're going to vomit, but you never do. It can last 10 minutes or 3 hours. It's a horrible disease. People look at you strangely, amd indent blame them. I just try to get away from everybody ASAP.

This has become a weekly occurrence for me, with a couple of smaller ones in between. I feel for people here because it can turn people into a shadow of their former self. It is good that it's becoming more recognized. The Internet has helped greatly.